frustration
i am damn frustrated. i got my pc fixed, i got my internet back, but i bloody hell cant post pics up this damn blog. and my other blogs! whats wrong!! ARGHHH.
ok after reading Jac's entry on friendship and visiting old folks and talking to her about it on thursday night when i met them at prata bomb i have mulled over it, and i am not too happy about the 'comm service' i recently performed at All Saint's Home. feel a bit hypocritical cos i think i was in it for the fun and a bit of the feel good factor but not really to do service. after all, without RnF, i wouldnt be going down to any home would i?
friday. last day of RnF. we had a concert and the residents were treated to some better food. felt really bad when i saw the folks unable to feed themselves and looking so poorthing. my heart bled a little. and my heart was also lifted when i saw some freshmen actually feeding and REALLY helping the folks. cleaning them, feeding them etc... some of whom i thought would never do such stuff. well. and i, i had to bring myself to do it.
sometimes i feel that we(or i) are using the old folks. its like,
'hey, thats an old folks home, lets go do some work there'. it's like i am doing for the sake of doing and not because i really love them or something.
i learnt one really important thing. not to think of myself as noble or what shit just by the fact that i performed some meagre Comm Service last year and this year. i think i need to GENUINELY love people. and it should start by showing love to my family, friends, and people around me first. it's strange if you can 'show' so much love to old folks you hardly know but yet swear at or treat your friends like shit.
ok after reading Jac's entry on friendship and visiting old folks and talking to her about it on thursday night when i met them at prata bomb i have mulled over it, and i am not too happy about the 'comm service' i recently performed at All Saint's Home. feel a bit hypocritical cos i think i was in it for the fun and a bit of the feel good factor but not really to do service. after all, without RnF, i wouldnt be going down to any home would i?
friday. last day of RnF. we had a concert and the residents were treated to some better food. felt really bad when i saw the folks unable to feed themselves and looking so poorthing. my heart bled a little. and my heart was also lifted when i saw some freshmen actually feeding and REALLY helping the folks. cleaning them, feeding them etc... some of whom i thought would never do such stuff. well. and i, i had to bring myself to do it.
sometimes i feel that we(or i) are using the old folks. its like,
'hey, thats an old folks home, lets go do some work there'. it's like i am doing for the sake of doing and not because i really love them or something.
i learnt one really important thing. not to think of myself as noble or what shit just by the fact that i performed some meagre Comm Service last year and this year. i think i need to GENUINELY love people. and it should start by showing love to my family, friends, and people around me first. it's strange if you can 'show' so much love to old folks you hardly know but yet swear at or treat your friends like shit.
posted by yeshye at 24.7.05
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