wonderful days

i think GOD is really giving me some wonderful days.
friday's cell outing was amazing. so much food (once again at jun's house), and it was within a reasonable budget of $10 per pax. i love GIANT at bukit timah. it is so malaysian.

i think lerky's 'wtf!' idea is not bad. i shall call mine 'WTN!'. it means 'what the nanapok!'. it simply means that what was said or did (or eaten) was extraordinary, or, in my words - *shiokaymama*.

many things happened today, and i am very pleased. but first up. sorry to pam for dropping your lappie. and you are very fit. (but i will outrun you by end may, promise.)
bernia. stop thanking me. i wont take your appreciation seriously unless you start destressing yourself. relax man. please learn to relax. anyway it was quite fun, the whole episode with bernia the baby, charmaine(who loves my foot), sam, and shawn. i shall thank liangwei and bob too on bernia's behalf. and all who asked about her, i.e lilly(my wonderful mooting partner, sorry you have to partner a piece of s*%t like me i promise to show you my real prowess soon) and jothie(if you are ever reading this) and everyone one else i didnt mention. sorry!

it's been a wonderful day.
breakfast at macs. here is todays's 'WTN!'. kerong coming back from the counter with sausage McMuffin number 3 and 4. he had such a sheepish look on his face and he muttered guiltily 'sorry ah you guys dont laugh at me ah'..hahaha he's damn cute. i love people who have passion. especially if they share MY PASSION.
1. God
2. Food
3. Music
4. The Unmentionables.

rounded up this wonderful day with dinner at clementi food centre with ian shawn lion king victor kerong. we proceeded to buy 'powpow cha' aka milk tea with pearls. and shooting pearls all over the place. yea. it's quite a public nuisance. i admit, i am a public nuisance. but ian is the best. i love pearl shooting. cant wait to the day we have guts to shoot the pearls at strangers. ok all fun and no work done makes me a bad bad student. tomoro, 2 tutorials, i know nothing, and i have moots. how exciting. 35 days to go!

oh ya. and sam offered me $20 to pangsai and put it in a plastic bag and bring to school. ok sam if you are reading this, i will accept the offer, for $40! thats some quick money!

relaxed week.

this week has been fun. relaxed. but i am damn scared now cos
1. moots is in 7 days
2. legal theory is in 15 days and i know nothing. again. alas.
3. crim is in 28 days
4. contract is in 35 days.
it really is kinda scary. especially when i know nothing.
but i still wanna watch the EYE10. hopefully this week before i full steam ahead.

this year i have learnt a bit more about the significance of Jesus's death and resurrection. i hope to appreciate it more cos it is strange that i, as a christian, am not appreciative of it. it seems as if i think i deserve that Jesus suffered and died for me. i don't deserve one drop of His blood, but yet, it has been given. so i will try to learn more about Christianity. actually i really am quite a stranger to God. i know the theories. i know what to say. but, i might not know God that well. all these years i have been living a religion. i think it's time i changed it into a relaitonship.

ok this week, i just want 2 more indulgences.
1. clementi fried chicken (this is part of the help shawn programme cos he fasted on fruits and veg last week, so must help him recuperate from all that yucky fruits stuff. yux.)
2. movie, and Sun Moulin's -bananawithspongecakeandhelllotofcream- thing.

oh ya and so many funny things happened this week but i forgot to note them down. one i can remember is that pamela loves to kiss O-M-K-K-C. that is for you to figure out. can someone remind me of all the funny things that happened this week? oh ya i watched woodsman. paedophile show, was quite appropriate cos i watched it with manu. i am not the paedo. and guess whose name he kept repeating during the show? haha. "______ is SHO cute! play with BOBO!"

ok thats it. happy mooting you law students. happy studyin my student friends. happy armying my army friends. happy working my working friends. happy being happy my all friends. GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU.

it's over!

FINALLY, it's over!!!!! the past 4 weeks have been hellish, with one assignment/test each week. really crazy. anyway it's over! now, i have 2 weeks to my moot day - 4 APRIL. yea!!!!
ok looks like an exciting week. i am fasting mon, weds, and fri, and cell is going to have a feast on Good Friday! wow shiok!!! cant wait!!! i love jun's house!!!!!!!
i wanna watch the new EYE movie. but it seems like no one wants to scare themselves. hey, it's fun scaring yourself.
anyway, i cant stress how stressless this week is. after the month of shit. plus, there is mu-chacha!

last note:
went for a court session today. saw the criminal,one 'Lim Poh Lye', who might be sentenced to death, and i was sitting damn near his family..like 2.5m away? and i felt really sorry...and....i am beginning to think that maybe the death penalty should have never been put in place.. i really dont think i will ever be a Public Prosecutor....or do anything to do with this area in law..it's too sad...i cant take it. i might just go into stuff which doesnt deal with that much emotions, or morality issues. it's because i feel so much for this issues that i should not go into them. so maybe no family law, no crim law. more corporate stuff perhaps. but well...we'll see how it goes.

I LOVE MY MUVO

I LOVE MY MUVO. IT IS SMALL, WHITE, BEAUTIFUL, AND POWERFUL - 5 GIG!!!!!!!!!!!
I AM DAMN HAPPY AND THE SALE WAS GRWAT FUN. WITH MEL LIEW THE VAINPOTTTTTT SHE TOOK A PIC OF HERSELF IN THE BUS ALONE. REASON BEING, SHE WAS BORED!
MANU AND EUNICE BOUGHT SPEAKERS!!!!! DAMN CHEAP! 39! AND DAMN GOOD SUB WOOFER. SHIOK!!!
AND THE GIRL QUEING IN FRONT OF US WAS QUITE CUTE. NOT AS CUTE AS MY MUVO THOUGH.
AS MANU SAID: 'GOD HAS HIS PLANS!'
I AM GLAD I DINT BUY ON IMPULSE! AND I WAITED FOR THE SALE!!!!

what's love got to do with it?

Love
   If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

   Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not selfseeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

What beautiful lines from the Bible. this is what Love should be. May i strive and work towards it. and i dont mean romantic love, but all types of love.
was going to stay overnight at the creative sale with manu shawn and eunice. somehow we decided against it and went back. but i would say it was great fun just going out and doing stupid stuff in the midst of the damn memo.
realised that many people are suffering. hurting. to you out there - i am suffering with you too. but let's find our way out and be strong. for suffering can make us stronger. Sigh. it's a sad world, i agree, but it can be beautiful too.
to all the 'mean' people who have been posting not so nice comments on various blogs, if you're reading, please do air your grievances properly. like personally? or nicely?
1 last note- i am getting my 5G Muvo (square) FM today at the sale. SHiok. i will soon be like kero and evelyn, walking music zombies. glad i saved my ERS shares for this. i am glad i waited. sometimes, you just have to wait.
GOD BLESS.

God's blessings

i don't like to post 2 days in a row but i have to remember how GOD spoke today.
i had the best CG session ever this academic year. it started off with Paul Seah speaking to me individually, asking me how i was and hows everything been. he also asked if shawn vic and i would like to sit on the ANNTIC CAMP comm for this december. will have to consider that carefully.

Paul spoke to me quite a bit about relationships. and about my struggles aprat from that. Really, God sends people when you need them. i feel comfortable speaking to him. We had a lengthy discussion and i came out trusting GOD so much more. he gave me quite a few perspectives. as the rest of the CG streamed in, they too started sharing their experiences and it was really great. i saw how God worked in their lives and i realised how caught up i have been in my little world, caught in my own little perspective. Using them, God has shown me how HE got evrything planned out and i am amazed at how HE is blessing me. Was amazing. we had a great great discussion. and sharing. we then started on BS proper and i learnt a lot once again about the differences between denominations. am really going to miss Paul and Joel when they leave law school. and of course, Jesslyn. Ah. i really like my CG.

also, i realised i have been taking myself too seriously after entering law. i want to stop that. you think you lawyer very good ah? siao! i want to be the free person i was. happy go lucky. law students tend to think too highly of themselves. this is a generalisation, i know, but i think i fall into it. conclusion: STOP TAKING YOURSELF TOO SERIOUSLY.

anyway, one thing i terribly want to remember. you need a
1. friend (matching personality)
2. partner (matching life goals)
3. lover (something to be cultivated when you have the first 2)
in your mate. don't rush God. HE got terrific plans for you.
one really funny thing paul likes to say: 'VCF is a great place to meet your future spouse!' get the underlying message?
HAHAHA. but no, thats not the reason i am in VCF. it's cos i want to see GOD everywhere. in school, in play, everywhere.

To sum it all up, i prayed for 2 things. and both have been answered.
i have received the financial help i needed.
i have received the advice and words i need to hear.
GOD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS. so for all of you who think you are going thru a bad time, do wait and seek GOD. He will answer you! you might not think my problems are comparable to yours, but i can assure you, i was in a whole lot of shit though i seem happy outside. and i am still recovering! i am ready to talk anytime, as far as i can.
GOD BLESS!

mercy is amazing

Mercy is amazing cos we get the things we dont deserve.
It is precisely when we get the things we don’t deserve that makes it beautiful.
The connection between mercy, love, and the law:
Law without love is legalism, mercy without the Law is blind love. You fool.

i would like to tribute this line to sylvia, i think it's kinda beautiful. she IS the queen of the hearts. HAHA.
'I want someone who can make me cry but who only makes me smile.'

i am convinced that i am not as smart as i think i was and i need to work harder. at least, i like the law.
but it's been fun at the same time amidst all the SHIT ASSIGNMENTS and all that SHIT. really SHIT. i loved the night out at KTM (refer to KT at KTM [2005] Tuesday, March 8 'This week: crim 40% assignment' 2nd para).
Yea kerong can really WHACK satays. serious. KANNA the satay.
actually last week was supposed to be damn shiong cos of the damn crim paper. but. i think i actually played quite a bit. including going to VIC's for man u match, and enjoying THE BOMB at thomson.
wednesday and thursday spent at UCC for concerts, and acting cultured. thought shawn played quite well. to my naked ear at least.

MOST IMPORTANTLY: HELP HAS COME from a friend/friend's family. and God is amazing.
7 more weeks to last paper. just pia...pia..pia and all the way. and poh pia! hahah ok sorry bad joke.
I LOVE FOOD AND I AM GOING TO CONQUER THE FOOD RACE THIS SATURDAY AND WIN THE MP3 PLAYER.

the reason i live is to worship you

factually, my life isn't getting better, things still suck.
handed up a sucky legal theory paper on law and morality. had to work thru the night till 7 bloody a.m.
the work is piling up, i am going crazy. really hope the en bloc is successful, my house is too messy.
But spiritually, GOD IS GOOD. i spoke to Paul Seah this week and that was great. God spoke throughout the week. but many times i think i didnt listen, too engrossed in my circumstances.

this morning at YM worship HE was there for me. this songs particularly spoke:
"i worship you....i worship you...
the reason i live...is to worship you.....
When i look into your holiness...
When i gaze into your loveliness..
when all things that surround become shadows in the light of you." (was really power i tell you)

and

"i serve a God..who is faithful and true.
i will hide..in the shelter of YOUR wings...till i find my rest, in your faithfulness
YES i serve a faithful God."

WAH LAU. was really power i tell you. cos on the way to church i was just thinking..if gOD is real...why why why why? why Doesnt he show me His strength? and HE really did. funny thing is, i was so skeptical before worship. but GOD really works. and the girl in front of me quite cute.

BUT anyway..another thing that was really AWESOME was jun jun house dinner on saturday. i went there to study in the afternoon and her mum was preparing dinner for us. was supposed to be simple dinner. but when we were called to the table WAH LAU I KANA SHOCKED.
COLD CRAB (BIG AND FAT) (PINCER CAN CLOBBER YOU)
1 ROAST DUCK
1 CHICKEN
BAK KUT PRAWN MEE AND FREEFLOW OF PRAWNS AND BAK KUT I CANNOT FINISH (NO BLUFF)
WHITE WINE
COKE
AND THEN WE HAD APPLE STRUDDEL AND ICE CREAM AND WE COULDN'T FINISH.
and the presentation was 10/10. it was simple no doubt. SIMPLY DELICIOUS!!!!
(on a side note. i broke the metal thing that you use to kiap kiap the crab and break the shell. yes, i broke it while trying to break the pincer shell. thats how bloody shiokay it was. had to clobber the bloody fellow.)

when i saw the food, i knew that God is REAL. you may think this is a joke. but seriously, you dont know how much food means to me. especially when there is over supply. that is xudes theory. only if there is too much food on the table and you know you cant finish it, then will it be shiok. really. GOD IS GREAT!

my new theory: real men don't diet. i have quit dieting for the rest of my life unless i kanna heart attack.come to think of it..i realised my life IS BETTER. OH. you see. HOw god works in mysterious ways. haha. ok BYE!!! CRIM LAW HERE I COME

oh ya by the way. i have decided to shave my head and keep it short in tribute to the exams. and i will be socializing less. and be more library hermit for the next 8 weeks.

God Bless.

a new beginning. (Again? Yeap, again.)

WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO BE MEEK?
To have self control. you need to be sure and secure of your identity in Christ. i am sure that i am a Christian, but i am not secure. i need to be sure that nothing else matters and that He will provide.
WE DONT HAVE A RIGHT. Everything that we have is GIVEN.

Been recovering from hell week. i was facing many issues last week. the really important ones were NOT the memo ones.
in life, there are more important issues than whether or not Charlie falls under the purview of the Maintenance of Parents Act. It was the worse week of 2005 so far. issues of acceptance, not seeing God, loneliness, all hit me. plus, i got a C- for my memo, and had no clue about the memorial. ended up handing a 3020 word memorial. i have hit a strong realization anyway. i got to accept the fact that i am not a genius and if i want to do well i have to work. and, if God does not intend for me to be the best, then fine. but i still have to try. it's not the best that matters. it's GOD'S BEST.

This is how i got through hell week.
my friends showed appreciation. i needed that most.
cell group was fantastic.
opened a kids Bible in my bookstore and God literally spoke there and then with the ELISHA story.
i feel like i am starting again. getting my life back on track.

It's a new beginning really.