driving me bonkers

i thought i liked contract. but today, i dealt with 2 topics i really hate. illegality and undue influence. i am still unsure of the damn undue influence. the law makes it very complicating. you know who is to blame? people who practice undue influence. people who make use of the relationship(one that reposes trust and confidence)they are in and procure a contract that is advantageous to them. shame on you!! now i have to study how the law deals with you.

i am so FRUSTRATED. i have no REMEDY but to eat. i know it is a MISTAKE to overeat, but i am under DURESS. dont be MISREPRESENTED, of course, i voluntarily eat, but it is not ILLEGAL to eat out your stress right? give me some CONSIDERATION and put yourself in my shoes. ACCEPTt me for who i am and all i have to OFFER as a friend. after hearing all these, i hope we are still on good TERMS. i hope you are thankful for being PRIVY to my thoughts, and dont BREACH this friendship of ours by telling evryone else about it. haha. now hows that for contract revision.

oh thanks jun for saying your hellos and stuff. didnt join you guys for super cos i was really tired. and needed the rest. last paper. last paper. last paper. then i am off to KL and genting, ok la i know not very exciting but it's a good break from law library. it will be terribly fun. it will. oh i cant wait.

i want to emphasize 2 things. anyway since shawn has FAILED to make his blog a good commentary for food, i will try.
1) SIM LIM food court the LI YING western food black pepper beef rice is really amazing. the beef slices are chunky and medium well. so there's a bit of blood. it is shiok. for 5.50 you get a lot a lot of beef and rice and a fried egg. KILLA.

2) Ghim Moh prata is undoubtedly the best. do ask for fish curry though, the plaster is crazy. i will call it the bleeding plaster. the yolk bursts when your fork contacts it. bleed for me baby. add some fish curry, and you are in food heaven.

ok la since i am at it i will add some more:
3) $1 muffins from Shunfu Mart chocolat' & spice. fantastic. zhu had a try. ask her. baey too. but i think baey dunno how to appreciate food. she only likes pretty food. aiyo. anyway the muffins are bloody shiok and the cheese ones and choco ones are heavenly.

4) muffins from jalan mat jumbol. kero house. he was so inspired by the Shunfu muffs that he went thome to buy betty crocker and laughing cow cheese and created his own banana walnut muffs with a cube of cheese in the middle. very good effort. better than most starbucks and coffee bean muffs that i have tried.

5) In tribute to BAEY. ugly food can be delicious. like the curry rice at lau di fang jalan besar. as KF Seetoh (makansutra) described it, 'looks like hell, tastes like heaven'. and it is damn cheap as well. best eaten in t shirt and shorts. haha.

one more paper to go

monday morning i had ghim moh and we had plaster prata. WOOH! it's the best. shiok!!!! SHIOK!!!!!!! met kenny's mummy. i think discussions are really good. helps you remember stuff and learn stuff from your friends. i like alan tan too. i think the freakies' consultaton with him was great, save shu's blunder. as for the paper itself. well..i thought it went well. all that i studied for came out. am happy. hope to get a B. taka dinner was great. hmm..gee-lian shu huishan baey me melvin keropi shawn sylvia vivien vic and kianteck. beef brisket noodles are good. and VIC MOLESTED SHAWN's THIGH thinking it was vivien. shiok. i laugh until i dieded. hahahahahaha.hahahhahha.hahahahaha.hahahahhaa.

wednesday i went for a talk in church. was good. and we had PRATA BOMB SUPPERRRRRRR!!!! at thomson. shiok. vic me shawn kero and lion king. had a really good talk. made me feel better. and i finally booked the hotel. furamma hotel in KL.

today. today. today. shiok muffins from sin ming market. study study study. actually i quite like studying. think i will miss this period. now i keep having something to work towards but after the exams it will be as if all is lost. strange... at least there is FOCC to work on. i love contract.

been bugged by quite a few things this week. keep niggling on my mind. and sometimes i can get quite pissed. God please forgive me and help me to see the situation in your EYES and also to deeal with it. and of course, for things to go better.

a sunday in the library

First, sorry to those i have hurt.

last night jun xudes lion shawn ian me, and the treater, marcus, went to grand copthorne for dinner at cafe brio's. and it was amazalicious. sometimes it's not only the food. it's the company. you guys are the best. i must have had at least 15 rounds. and i am proud to say i almost tried evrything they had there. excet for some insignificant bread and vegetables, i must have had everything. really a hell lot. it was crazy, and wonderful. the bbq king prawns were so shiok until i wanted to shout. shiok. and the chocolate fountain, as ian remarked, was a dream come true. xudes wanted to bring it to our table, however, he was stopped. too bad.

i ate ghim moh just now. shiok. i think i am eating too much. even the aunties seated on our table commented so. but they also said that, whilst you are young, just enjoy la. yea, i fully agree. live life to the 'fullest' literally. life is short: eat much.

ok bye. the music in the library is playing. off to church and dinner witrh parents. hmm.. i wonde where i will be eating...

food

thanks friends, for your words including the SMSes.

a certain friend of mine decided to show us her criteria for her man. since i made mine public, i think she just wanted to have some fun and so she showed it to us. a magnificently written 31 point criteria. sorry sista, based on that list, no man would qualify. but she had to make things worse by including her number 32nd criteria. her future guy cannot have ever *ahemed*(cannot mention this on public blog). you know, in law, we learn when sometimes an attempt of an offence cannot be considered an offence. there are 4 types of impossibility. her 32nd criteria is what i would term a PHYSICAL IMPOSSIBILITY. to my dear friend **** **-***, you never ever need to show anyone the 31 criteria. just mention the 32nd, and they will tell you to go fly a kite. but be careful where you fly it. COS according to the MISCELLANEOUS OFFENCES (PUBLIC ORDER AND NUISANCE) ACT (CHAPTER 184) section 13. —(1) Any person who (e) flies any kite, or plays at any game, or does any act which obstructs or interferes with the traffic in any public road, or the use of the wires of any telephone; shall be liable on conviction to a fine not exceeding $5,000.

but seriously, i hope to see you married and be happy. please do lower your criteria and be rid of the 32nd. and i am dead pan serious.

thanks to those who are trying to help me eat less/healthy. really appreciate it. but the problem is, i usually eat a lot. you cannot expect me to suddenly stop eating. and, a macdonald's big breakfast is really not a big breakfast. a real big breakfast is one i eat with the KIA at bintan, that kinda breakfast buffet. countless sausages, nasi lemaks, porridge, 7 eggs, bread, 2 bowls of cereals, bacon strips, and some other stuff. what i eat now is ok what. a macs big breakfast is nonsense, seriously. just like kero can get pissed over cutting a croissant into a wrong half, I AM ENTITLED TO GET PISSED OVER A BIG BREAKFAST BEING CALLED 'BIG'. it is nothing more than a re-packeged sausage egg mcmuffin. puny!!!!

this week i have been practising eating less, cos the loosest jeans have become tight. the rest of my clothes are colllecting dust. i bought an elephant leather belt on sunday cos the last one just was not strong enough for my growing tummy.i must say my efforts are not too bad. usually i consciously overeat. now, i am consciously eating only enough. and i think that really is very good already. you dont know what food means to me. only the KIAs know. i iove you guys, gerald ian xudes jun lion marcus lawrence shawn. and of cos my official Makanmatas ros and kenny. and of cos my fav eater in law school kerong!!!! and i will not forget to mention those who have shared my eating joys like vic(bomb in bishan), gillian(cameron we were eating all the time) and the pac-pam(sho cute i wanna put you in a barrel). my food enemies being bernia (always accosting me for eating) and sylvia the 'big breakfast' tee. but back to my point, i will i will throw a pau at you. oh i mean, i will stop eating excessively. will try from that, then if i get used to that, maybe will try eating healthily.

this week's food recommendation: sim lim food court the 'Li Ying Western Food Stall'. i love their chicken cutlet rice and their black pepper beef rice. shiok i tell you. the beef they give a hell lot! and it comes in big chunky pieces, not thin slices, and it's medium well, so got a bit of blood inside. wonderful. sorry munkao, and all other vegetarians.

goodnight.

not jaded, just accustomed.

i would say my heart has grown cold. i am used to it now. no longer going to let the emotional side overwhelm me. have grown cold. it happens, and i see it happen, but i am glad to say i have hardened my heart to it. i think the truth is that humans are selfish, fallen, evil creatures. so whenever i see a kind soul, i really stand in admiration. sad to say, there are few around. have you ever had a sinking feeling? what surrounds you is a facade? when that realisation hits you? i have been too foolish. yes, there will be good people.

because i see it so much, i have resigned. you can do what you want, i give up. don't befriend me if you dont want to. serious. i am just going to be myself. i dont wanna live in a shadow. i leave it to GOD for the future. anything goes. i am really happy. cos i have finally accepted myself. it doesnt matter anymore what people think or say. scorn, laugh, whatever. friends, find your only hope in GOD. everything else is fallen. gone.

i think what the bible said is very true. dont put your hope in man, or try to find favour in the eyes of man, but in GOD alone. it is so true. not that i have always chased the favour of man. but i admit to doing it sometimes. and i have been scalded. of course i am waiting for someone to prove me wrong. but meanwhile, no more no more. just please GOD alone. man always lets you down. goodnight.

prata lunch at biopolis

i had prata lunch at the biopolis and met ee guan and sock. heh heh. anyway after the lunch and some conversation with kerong and shawn, i have decided to re-do my that list. so fun.

1. must be biologically, physically, and behaviourally female.
2. christian (broad category)
3. cultural feminist (this is very different from the stereotypical feminist)
4. naughty(on the outside) yet nice(on the inside).
5. confidence (but not misplaced)
6. love to makan. have come to realise that this is rather crucial.
7. got the groove (i think this is optional but bonussy)
8. zhiwei must like her. (this is a very broad cat. entirely up to zhiwei's discretion)

yay. there i have it!
bye bye. off to have dinner now~. boon tong kee with my mum.

soon kuey cha peng and merry bachangs

yesterday my fren brought her fren to join us for supper. she is the cutest thing i have met this year. she's not the *pam and bernia i want to throw pau(tua, or wet, or yam) i want to stuff you in a barrel and kick you down a slope* kinda cute she's the oh what the heck she's damn pretty-cute what the what the what the what the kinda cute. OH BABY!

ok. she's damn cute man. serious no joke. i think i like big eyes. ok stop.

anyway i missed tg lunch on thursday wah lau i didnt know la! sorry jothie, donnt worry, i still love you jothie. i went to liangwei's instead and we baked some cakes and cookies. erm...yea, well, it was fun. the cookies were...lovely? the cake was quite good i tohught. unconventional perhaps. the rest thought it was like shit. literally? hahaha. lawrence shu eve and liangweu were there(duh). ok. liangpei is the most adorable thing!!!!!! liangwei's sis. i think primary school one. no i am not a woodsman. she is the soooooooo cute i wanna pat and play with and throw paus at type of cute!!! bloody cute i tell you. shawn likes liangwei's other sis. i think she is in JC. liangpei is so cute! liangwei please sell her to me. hahahahahahaha.

friday's field soccer was great with the law guys. was bloody shiok. too bad i kinda sprained the wrist and left hand. was shiok. we should play every week. shiok. we had 22 some more. what a great day it was. half were half naked by the way. in the drizzling rain.

ok i end off with the verse we talked at about cell:
BLESSED ARE THOSE WHO ARE PERSECUTED FOR RIGHTEOUSNESS SAKE, FOR THEIRS IS THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN. i would like to stress the importance of FOR RIGHTEOUSNESS SAKE. if you are punished for something you do wrong, there's no glory in that. you are just getting what you give. there is only glory if you are persecuted for CHRIST sake. like St Paul. he the man. ok ok now to start on abetment group liability and all that nonsense. GOD BLESS.

it is finished.

finally i am done with LEGAL THEORY. sigh...it is 5.35 am on a thursday morning. alas...bye bye CLS. i enjoyed your skepticism. now it's hello crim, my hated subject, and contract, my beloved. really, it's such a joy to have finished. this one was tough, but not as treacherous as my law and morality paper, which i finished only at 7 the last time.

ah...it is done...what a relief.....thank GOD!

study la

i really need to study. today..i received my crim law assignment. a wonderful C+. exactly what i predicted. still, i was a lil disappointed. but i still went for dinner at HV crystal jade with my CG. geelian vic juggie-baby jesslyn and joel. quite a shiok dinner. after that, jugs vic and i came to LAW and alas..we were convinced to go to KTM with xiaohui. alas and KTM RAMLY was closed so we went LAU PA SAT. we had banana split, indian rojak, and satay. hello..where is the studying?

i hate crim, i am fine with tort and i love contract. i like mooting, i hate writing memos and i am confused about legal theory and sls. i am a through and through fact skeptic and legal realist. so we should stop studying altogether since these precedents and so called rules wont give us the answers we seek. it's all so uncertain. the judge is king. hmm...

sunday night wass great. andrew is the man(RESPECT brother, RESPECT). susie is damn funny. and all the singing was soooo fun. i seriously want to karaoke! on the night of the last damn paper!!!!!! but i still love contract. though i got C last sem.

sunday at church, the speaker was wonderful, was really great. i am on a journey to discover GOD more than ever before. and i am fasting these 2 weeks. hello GOD! hope that i will hear you more than b4!!!!

i really ate bloody a lot.

the criteria

just read some blogs here and there and was reminded of my 'WTN'. ok. today's 'WTN' comes from victor xia. he saw ja liy's lap top, whose desktop background was a painting. a holy painting. A VERY RELIGIOUS and sacred painting. vic, in his excitement to make fun of baey, saw it, and said ' wahlau! baey! why your desktop picture got 3 gay men!'. WTN. we pray he wont kanna lightning or something.
i am going to make a list. have been inspired to do this by talking to shawn, tqui( tee renxin), and baey.
alas, also, inspired by mel liew's blog (mel mel)(say it in jothie tone), i have decided to come up with a...with a something. i dunno what to call it. interested girls may apply. mel mel in her blog says she has strict criteria. thats too cryptic. so, if you want me to sweep you off your feet, i have devised a 5 stage test to check if you apply. or frens, you know anyone that can apply, just tell me man. and sorry if i enact retrospective legislation after this. i will try to make mine clear and certain.

1. must be biologically, physically, and behaviourally female.
2. christian (broad category)
3. cultural feminist (this is very different from the stereotypical feminist)
4. naughty(on the outside) yet nice(on the inside).
5. zhiwei must like her. (this is a very broad cat. entirely up to zhiwei's discretion).

after further thought, i was wondering, is it true that one just likes a person similar to him/her self? Mel Mel talked about music. hmm...shawn agreed that musicians have a hidden streak of selfishness. hmm...how about drummers?

which reminds me= LAWFLOWERS!!!!!
we need to start playing after the damn exams. the lawflowers were
Samuel Lotus Lim on electric guitar
Ziliang Poppy on lead guitar/ vocals
Zhiwei Periwinkle on drums (vocals wannabe)
Victor Venus Flytrap Xia rhythm guitar/vocals
Andrew Lily Lee bass guitar (respect hahahaha)
Evelyn Mimosa on keyboard (going to America!)
i cant wait to play music. i think it is one of the greatest Gifts God has given. shiok.

oh these are some of the things that have been cracking me up. imitating tutors. it's highly amusing. it's just one of those things that crack students up without fail. i know la, a bit the 23 this year still so childish. i dont care!
zhiwei(jothie, high pitch, airy) : Zhiwei, what do YOU think?
Shawn(shawn, strongly enunciated, A&G associate type): HUUUWAAATT? EXCEPT.
Sylvia(Dianne, American accent): you gotta STOP doing that.
Victor(who is really damn funny)(Ramraj, Indian without any traces of indian accent but in full bloom american accent and strange pronounciation): PREHH-JECT!!!
i swear it's damn funny. we were laughing and imitating at the top of our voices this afternoon in classroom 2-5 till OTIS came over from the legal writing office to shut us up.
oh and we drew some characters for the freaaky friends. mine is immensely ugly.

ok so much for doing work. it's 10 pm already? shit shit shit. ok ok. privity here i come!

oh no. all fun and no study.

what a wonderful week, and it's only thursday night. LAW school was fantastic this week. ok...monday night. went out watch movie. tuesday night. dinner at gelare's with the TG. my first and last dinner. that's sad. JAC AND MEL! SEND ME THE PICS!!!! actually i think my tg got very interesting people. well...too bad we only started talking this sem. last sem was dead. i guess it's the common misery of a 630pm crim law tut. and i do quite like jason chan. i ate too much on tuesday. ah. then i had supper at boon tong kee!!! with ros and geraldine. ros' stories of C were really funny. i ate bloody 2 bowls of chicken rice and half porridge la. shit. (sorry if i sound like pam). oh ya recently i discovered sylvia is starting to sound like me. hahahaha sylvia tee. hahahahahhaaha. just dont go around flashing.

oh no! had another study free day on wednesday. i only remembering playing soccer on a rainy pitch and then american idol at sylvia's. my fav is nikko smith. i love black music and i loove the way he sings. very boyz 2 men like. just the way i like it.

today was fantastic. freakies congregated at lunch, for a first in 3 weeks i believe. they really are freaks. though i think KIA is crazier. ian gerald lion-king xudes jun marcus shawn lawrence chee. ultimate crazy combo. ian is the bestest. especially the car ride on sat night from suntec to sylvia's house. poor syl was trapped with ian shawn me lion and vic. that was crazy. i like being in cars and taxis. love talking and singing to cabbies. SHO CUTE.

back to today. i finally finished analyzing the damn postmodernism article by stacey that #$%^. i hate it. maybe i just not smart enuff, but i find it damn difficult. bloody hell article. shit you!!!!!!! hahaha.

yea then freakies supposed to eat dinner at guidhall. turned out that there was no buffet! and from guildhall we somehow went to KTM! hahah. shoo syl eve baey KT shawn Vic and me. was great and we ate quite a bit. eat the cze cha. WEH WEH. i like jay chou and i am trying to please sylvia by singing his songs. somehow..she's not too impressed. never mind, we go KTV on the last day of contract and fight it out! after dinner, we were all prepared to go back and study, but alas, somehow again we decided to go HV. and i am sooo happy that we did. we met cheng han, who was going to wala wala (wah) and andrew, susie, melanie and xiaohui who joined us. alamak i ended up at gelare's again. so i didnt eat. but was great. sue is soooo funny. andrew is the MAN. RESPECT. had lotsa laughter there then we all went our own ways.

ok so the serious stuff. i really like jacky cheung now. just that i dont really understand what he is singing about. i presume it is about love.
i really need to study.
i really thank GOD for giving me a helluva time(ok thats quite ironic but i know what i mean and i know you know what it means) this few weeks, especially after liberation.
this week i learn a lot aboutn peace. and making peace. we need to purposely live in peace. it comes with effort.
love is not a feeling. it is a decision. how else you think couples can live together forever? they make the effort to love and forgive all the way. if love is a feeling, i bet you you would stop loving your spouse after some time. it really is a decison and a commitment.
i really like having fun. so what if i am a law student. doesnt mean i should be studying 4 years. in the end, what is important in life? so what if i gain all the riches and knowledge, but have not lived a fun life, or spent time with frens? i should stop feeling guilty for having fun. but i know, i also need to study la. alas. what a contradiction.
oh this week i have been eating more fruits. can shit better la. healthy living.
GOD BLESS YOU.

WONDERFUL! MOOTS IS OVER

ok. it wasnt as scary as i thought. perhaps cos neither eleanor lei theng or wha-lan bridge were there. and cos all 4 of us knew each other from presentation. huishan v lilly, colleen v me. i thought i did quite well overall. about a 1000% improvement from my last class moot. bernia jothie and lilly can vouch that. anyway, jothie said i have a lovely voice. i like my voice on the mike. sounds damn sexy! haha ya and i hope i wasnt penalised for playing a fool with the mike when the judges went out to discuss after we finished. it's bernia's fault. she was so cute i had to scold her. i swear i will throw a pau. and i loved my gold tie. i like wearing suits.

what a wonderful day it was. rainy, good moot, went for dinner at MOS with bob lilian and huishan. and we watched A WEDDING DATE. was ok. bob is a horny boy. this, i concede, the palmist is right. but he's still a fraud.

GEELIAN. your nick for me will never catch on!!!! hahahaha!! but you are GEELIAN!!!!! (ghee-lee-en)
Y2J. i hate army. i hate armour. i hate tanks. i am civilian.
xiaohui. dont yux my tummy. dont deny. i know its wonderful.
jugs(if you ever read this). thanks for fixing my itunes. you are indeed a genius.

cant wait for buffets to come and invade my life. cant wait to go malaysia and whack the seafood. cant wait to play soccer this wednesday. cant wait cant wait!!!!

finally mooting

Seems like it's taking especially long for my moots to come. since vic finished on monday and has been gloating about it. damn. and quite a few of the rest finished on friday and sat, and i even went out with some freakies, gigglies and a tatap. i think only 2 of us who were there werent finished with it yet.

I have just finished a run alone in NUS and i think it was great. nice and quiet on a sunday night.
why do i run?
1. destress for moots.
2. i want my BUFFET TREAT from pam amd mel.
3. 'zhiwei'/'yeshye' has been increasingly synonymous with the words 'breasts' and 'need a bra'. this has to stop. MAN IT HAS TO STOP! I KNOW MANY ARE JEALOUS OF MY ASSETS BUT I MUST REMIND YOU THAT THEY ARE PECS, NOT BREASTS!!!!!!
hence the increase in running and swimming. and, i think i want to join IFG soccer. looks so fun.

this week was great again, it was LIBERATION WEEK. i need to thank GOD a lot for helping me recover. and friends who have heard all my complaints. and especially kerong, who gave me magical words on monday night. i tihnk he didnt mean to 'touch' me in that way, but what he said really struck me. and i am RECOVERED. THE OLD ZHIWEI IS HERE. i am damn happy.

anyway, i hope law school gets better and i hope people recover from their hurts and i hope everyone finds friends to identify with and i hope we will have a smashing time at law camp RnF and MAtric.

its 30 days to last paper; let's go let's go.